Let Me Be Myself

I guess i just got lost being someone else,
I tried to kill the pain
But nothing ever helped
I left myself behind
Somewhere along the way
Hoping to come back around
and find myself some day

Lately I'm so tired of waiting for you
To say that it's OK, tell me please
Would you one time,
Let Me Be Myself
So i can shine,
with my own light
Let Me Be Myself

Would you Let Me Be Myself
Coz I'll never find my heart
Behind someone else
I'll never see the light of day
Living in this cell
It's time to make my way
Into the world i knew
And take back all of these times
That I gave in to you

Lately I'm so tired of waiting for you
To say that it's OK, tell me please
Would you one time,
Let Me Be Myself
So i can shine,
with my own light
Let Me Be Myself,
For a while
If you don't mind,
Let Me Be Myself
So i can shine,
with my own light
Let Me Be Myself

That's all i ever wanted from this world
Was to let me be me..

Please, would you one time,
Let Me Be Myself
So i can shine,
with my own light
Let Me Be Myself
Please, would you one time,
Let Me Be Myself
So i can shine,
with my own light
Let Me Be Myself,
For a while
If you don't mind,
Let Me Be Myself
So i can shine,
with my own light
Let Me Be Myself


It's just another week more to go to POP! but the bad thing is, A' levels results are coming out this friday. Sigh. Wonder how sucky my results are gonna be. =( don't dare to get back results man. this sucks.

And yesterday's 16km route march is hell. I got blisters all over my feet now. Walking in boots is damn f-ing pain can. Plus we were marching in the rain. Drenched, tired and hungry. And i suppose i was having a slight fever on top of my cough and flu. My buddy was running a temperature of 39 and i had to support him throughout which made it even more tiring for me. But i guess i'm glad i managed to pull him through. Somehow, i just felt that my platoon was so bonded then. Can't imagine how i'm gonna survive 24km.

I guess this few days really made a difference to my life. Perhaps coz there was too much time in camp that i was thinking alot. Damn. Emo shit again. Reminds me of some emo-momo brother! haha. But yeah, just that i wasn't feeling too good. Plus I have no avenues to vent my frustrations on. sigh. I feel like screaming! ARGH!

My Life Would Suck Without You lyrics

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

(Chorus)
Cuz we belong together now, yea
Forever united here somehow, yea
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Maybe I was stupid
For telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong
For tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way I found out I'm nothing without you

(Chorus)

Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you,
But I can't let you go,
Oh yeah

{ music break}

Cuz we belong together now, yea yea
Forever united here somehow, yea
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Cuz we belong (yeah) together now (together now), (yeah)
Forever united here somehow, yea
You got a piece of mi
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you



Quite an interesting song huh? haha. Just another silent moment on my own.. 3 hours before going back to the stupid island of tekong. And it would be another 5 days before i come out again. Sigh. Feeling kinda moody now i guess. Bare with the whining yeah. It's another 2 and a half weeks to POP! Not sure if it's a good thing or a bad thing. I like my section mates, and i'll miss them when we got post out of BMT. Whatever it is, life still has to move on..

This weekend has been quite terrible for me, partly due to my irritating cough and flu definitely. Then again, it might be just because i'm tired. Not getting ample rest even on my weekends. This is not good. But to me, sleeping is a waste of time coz i could have spend it doing something more meaningful. Oh well.. I should sleep more i conclude. Oh i really wanted to watch the movie 'slumdog millionaire' but there's no one to watch with. Alright, off to pack my bag.


Sometimes i look in the mirror.. And i can't help laughing..

3 weeks more to POP! woo! So fast 5 plus 6 weeks have past. Can't believe it. And it has been really tiring and mentally draining for the past few weeks due to outfield activities. But definitely, i did have my fair share of fun with my friends.

I certainly miss civilian life man.. And yes, i miss having hair, just black hair will do. haha. Can't wait to grow hair again. Have to wait quite some time i guess. =( Missed my valentine's day due to some test so yeah i spent my vday in camp with all guys. It's been some time since i spend vday with guys. ARGH! Oh well, nothing great about it, i'll celebrate it next time with her! *promise*

Actually i had alot of things to blog, but somehow after i log in, i lost all my thoughts. Well, i wonder how life will start to change when we get back our A' level results. I honestly don't wanna get it back, coz i'm pretty sure i screw it up. Sigh. So what's gonna be my next step in life? don't dare to think about it.

I really hoped to share more of your burden. Seeing you so stressed up makes me unable to rest in peace as well. No matter what, i'll always give you my utmost support. jiayou!