Hm.. 31st of august today. Decided to come blog before the month ends. Perhaps coz this month was super happening for me and loads of things happened so it would be nice to just wrap things up. Ohoh! i think keeping a blog lets you look back on your past when you want to, but the problem is looking back at my past makes me feel that i'm stupid. damn it.

Oh well, actually i've nothing much to write. LOL!! But i know prelims like next week. Really exactly starting in 7 days time once it's past 12. I spent the entire week going through the whole econs syllabus but i dun think it helps much. Gonna make an appointment to see my econs tutor to sort things out abit. I'm damn touched when she said she would come down to school just for my sake. So i hoped i wun let her down again this time.

I didn't know my blog receives so many hits everyday. Not say alot but still there's at least a few. Maybe one day i will become a commercial blogger or sth? =DD just kidding. It would bore my readers to death i think. Oh yeah! The baby's coming back tml as it's a weekday! Can't wait to play with him!

I guess the one and only thing i regretted was perhaps not insisting that we let others know we were together bah. I really didn't mind being so secretive bout it since you didn't wanted others to know. But come to think of it, perhaps things would have been much better if the others know. This few nights of insomnia kept me thinking bout our past. Made me wanna go ice skate as well! Still haven't got the confidence to skate myself.

Lately i've been having alot of cravings for food. Sushi. Mos burger. Carls junior. Still alot more. Been stuck at home for so long that i feel like i've lost contact with the outside world. Other than the occasional buzzes on my hp which still remind me i'm in modern civilisation, i really feel like a caveman otherwise. And i need a haircut real badly before school reopens. But the time spent travelling and waiting is really a big deterrent. Rarh! The weather lately has been very condusive, for sleeping. LOL!

For now, i shall go make my daily cup of coffee and try my best to stay awake for another 3 hours. Welcome september! cya folks!

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared
It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care

And now we're standing in the rain
But nothings ever gonna change
Until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you
The 7 things I hate about you, oh you

You're vain
Your games
You're insecure
You love me you like her
You made me laugh, you made me cry
I don't know which side to buy

Your friends they're jerks when you act like them
Just know it hurts
I want to be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and silent as I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now is your sincere apology
When you mean it I'll believe it
If you text it I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh I'm not coming back
Your taking seven steps here

Compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you
Your hair
Your eyes
Your old Levi's
When we kiss I'm hypnotized

You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hands in mine when we're intertwined
Everything's alright
I want to be with the one I know

And the 7th thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you
You do




There you go. Another song that i've heard quite a number of times over the radio and seemed to caught my attention. It's gonna be the weekend once again! How time flies.. Tomorrow is teacher's day celebration but i'm not going school. Awww.. It's not that i don't like my teachers, but it's just too big an opportunity cost since i had to travel so far to go school. And i had this very lovely present intended for a teacher but i haven't finish preparing so yeah..

I'm going so slow in my revision that. Sigh.. The entire econs syllabus is making me go crazy! damn it. I swear i'll burn the notes after my A levels. It's one whole bloody thick stack. The private cost would be the cleanup i have to do after burning them. The external costs incurred would be the health problems suffered by my family members or anyone who happened to inhale the fumes of smoke produced as a result of the burning of my notes. Maybe it will cause some massive block fire that will damage public property as well. That's econs for you. lalala.. for now, i'll try to love econs.

Stuck at home the whole day with only the computer and my notes as companions. Life totally sucks man. Can't wait for all this to end. I need to get a life. I feel like going to the movies. Do you? =)

Since i'm not really in a mood to study now, i shall blog.

Well, thank god GP is over! haha. But then i think i kinda screw up my essay coz i interpreted the question in a funny way.. It's the first time i attempted a question on the "environment" as well. So let's see how it goes. I almost fell asleep during the compre damn it. Maybe it's due to the lack of sleep the previous night. Thanks to someone who tell me wat possibility shit.. Make me keep dwelling upon it.

I'm trying to read econs at this unearthly hour.. i figured that no matter how i read or memorise, i just can't seem to reproduce them and do well. Rarh! Shall go find my econs tutor tml in a despertate bid to save my dying situation. She's not a good teacher to begin with, but sadly, she's my only hope.

Staying at home the entire day makes me feel so sick. Feels like i'm being quarantined. The worst thing is i can't settle down properly and study. And now my lifestyle has switched to a nocturnal mode.. Wouldn't be awake until like 12noon at least. Sleep also has to wait till 3am or so. Maybe till then i will be just too tired and i'll just sleep coz there's a need to.

I'm just thinking why my life is so messed up now. I just feel like going to the beach and SCREAM! RARH! Bottled up frustrations. Must maintain. But seriously, i haven't done that before i think? Not that i remember at least. Maybe one day i shall try. Sometimes i wish i could grow up faster. And drive a car! Eh, recently i keep visualising myself driving ok.. But ironically, sometimes i wish i could go back to the past. Maybe then i would not do things that i will come to regret. Or do things that i regretted not doing.

In short, we should really just cherish what we have currently, and not feel the pain when we lose them.



I told you i was driving..



sometimes a moment of rashness was all it takes.

I've decided to put a stat counter on my blog. Partly coz i thought it would be quite interesting to know how many people visits my blog since i don't publicise it unnecessarily. And also because i read in the papers that there could be online stalkers. HAHA! How does it feel like to be stalked? Well.. I wanna find out but i don't wanna experience it for myself of coz. lalala..

Just now i played this boardgame called 'RISK' with my siblings. It was damn bloody fun man! Haven't played it since like ages ago and i'm still as good. But in the end i lost. It's definitely not because i am lousy.. =p It's just because my brother totally manipulated my sister to his advantage. EH! It's not an excuse ok! Well, it's just a game.. It did teach me that you should have a direction urself and not allow someone to completely manipulate you. Life issue hor..

It's 10! damn.. I still have quite some readings to do. So i shall keep this short. I really hope i could do much better for tml! JIAYOU HENRY! =D

I'm still "falling for you"

Still can't get that song out of my head. lalala.. Maybe i would get too sick of it soon and stopped listening to it. It's like 3plus already and i'm still here blogging. Was reading my kaleidoscope but it got too boring for me. And guess who was keeping me company through this 2 hours or so. My ex. Haha. The constant vibrating of the phone kept me awake i guess? LOL! So thanks alot! But well, i realised we smsed more than we did last time. How last time i couldn't remember..

Prelims' GP is on mon! which is like TOMMORROW! *presses panic button* I really don't know how to prepare for it exactly. By just reading essays and looking through my past compres or other work, it still doesn't make me feel more confident. I've never gotten higher than a D for GP. It's so disturbing.. Now all the big words are floating around in my mind but i can't seemed to use any of them here. haha.

There's olympics basketball finals later. 2.30pm! LIVE on channel U or 5 i think. Not going to miss it. So hopefully i can wake up earlier and do some studying before i go watch. This year's olympics was quite spectecular given all the hype surrounding athletes like Phelps and Bolt. Perhaps you wouldn't be able to see it again at the next olympics? 2012 London. By then i would be in uni i guess? MAYBE i will be there to watch it live? LOL! dreaming huh.. oh well..

The following is a personality test which works out quite accurately for me. Quite is the word. So if urs ain't accurate, it's not my fault. But do check it out.

http://memoriter.net/flash/test.html

Stupid blogger is stopping me from uploading pictures. Damn irritating. I'm gonna go back to reading essays and then to my dreamland. Have a great weekend! nite. =)



Traffic jam anyone? haha.

I've learned there's such an abbreviation as 'bff'.

A song that i'm crazy over currently.


Song lyrics | Fall For You lyrics


This song kept repeating in my mind after the first time i heard it on the radio. Didn't think it was very nice at the start. But it just crept slowly upon me and now it's all over me.. haha. It somehow just trigger lots of thoughts. post-relationship thoughts i guessed. But either way, it's really a great song and i would recommend it to you people out there!

Prelims are going to come like damn soon. I feel so unprepared. So naked. Still have quite some way to go in my revision. Sigh. Even still, I need more than a miracle i guess. I feel like going overseas to study. *dreams on* This last part of the marathon has proved more tiring than it could be..























hm.. future F1 driver in the making??



It's time to move on..

Wah.. This is seriously not working out for me.. Make until so pek chek.. But anyway, this is a classis scene from my GP lesson. Haven been bothers to put this up until like now when i find it damn amusing. Oh, the teacher is like standing at the far end near the window although i couldn't keep him within the frame. So as you can see, i'm one of the few survivors. =D *applause*

I've enough of stupid blogger for the day. Stupid pictures upload so slow. RARH! Ok. I shall go study. Today is super unproductive.. So looking forward to the weekend! And i did this freaking personality quiz thingy yesterday which is absolutely disturbing. Shan't think about it. Bathe and study. Cya!

9th of aug! Happy National Day! I couldn't use words to describe the fireworks once again. haha. 4th time and i swear this is the BEST! I watched with my two newly found sisters! can we still be sisters after what had happened? Hm.. my planned surprise was a total failure but i shouldn't have put so much hope into it actually. Sigh.. I guess things are just meant to be that way. Not to worry, i'm still going strong.

Then that very night, we had a drink-and-cards session! I swear i was almost drunk. I could feel it in me.. My mind was wide awake, but i couldn't control my actions totally. But that feeling was kinda great? It somehow made me take off that strong mask of mine so that i could let off some steam. Really had a great night! We should do it again! Thanks SISTERS!

I guess this signals an end to the paths that we took together. It's not going to be easy. We've come this far. But some things can't be forced. Since you've chosen to walk away, i won't stop you. I didn't expect it to hurt as much as it did. But it was nothing compared to what i felt for the past few weeks. If ever one day our paths met again, you will still occupy a special place in me. So should you stumble as you walk, i'll be there.

Happy Birthday. uoyevoli.
Hope you'll have a super great birthday! =D

I swear this is the most unproductive weekend i have had. Totally no work done, no studying, and hell i have chem test on tues when i'm gonna go movie tml. GG-fied. I shall stop ranting coz it will never end.

But well, i discovered something within myself which i haven quite dare to accept for super long. The past 2 weeks had been real slow, partly coz i have been spending my days studying in school. This is a good thing on the other hand as it keeps my mind occupied rather than thinking too much. The bus journeys home after that are quite torturing though coz it's when all the emo shit happens. damn it. I've no time for such stuff now and i doubt she has time for me either. Prelims are in one month's time? SO PLEASE START STUDYING SERIOUSLY!

Yesterday's fireworks were A-W-E-S-O-M-E!! I really can't described how pretty it was. Maybe my partner there made it even prettier. haha. Well, thanks for the company. It was only 4 plus hours, but that was more than enough to cheer me up greatly. I knew i could count on you. Sorry for being so down at times but i did try to smile. =D oh yeah, you looked better in your new look and with makeup. 3 cheers for you!

This post looks kinda long to me. And i spent another 10 freaking minutes to get this done. I'm gonna go off to sleep. Tired to the power of infinity. Gd nite.


You were the one that made me believe, but now you are the one that made me lose faith.

I spent the entire 2 weeks making a card for you when my art is god damn bloody lousy. I stopped for 2 days coz i really had no motivation to do it. Your present is more or less done. So i shall just hope you would like it as it may well be the last thing i got for you. I love you, but i wanna stop hurting myself