I think i shall adopt this song as my new favourite song.

Artist: Urban Keith
Song: Tonight I Wanna Cry

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

(Chorus:)I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with this pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry


Somehow this song seemed to encapsulate all my thoughts and emotions for the night. It's always been like that i guess? If only i had taken a different path maybe life wouldn't have been so tough right now? Common tests coming in 2 weeks. 1 week and 2 days to study to be exact. I have no idea how i'm going to cramp everything within this period of time. It's simply impossible. I guess i'll have to readjust my timetable and give up more shitass relaxation time.. Sigh. Getting so stressed up. Not like i dun wanna study for ct right? I'm at a loss of wat to do now. If you know wat i should do now, tell me! It may be helpful.. haha.

Someone asked me this question 10 mins ago, "if given a choice, would you be a guy or a girl?"
After thinking for 30 seconds (i'm surprised i even have to think actually), i told the person i still wanna be a guy. Given my character, i could hardly be a girl. And i can't imagine myself having to put on make up and having menstrual cramps! LOL. Oh wells, i'm just not cut out to be a girl. On the other hand, that friend chose to be a girl coz of i-dunno-wat reasons..

I think these few days i'm under a curse. I kept misplacing my stuff and losing them. On thur i left my hp pouch in school at the bball court without realising it. Damn was i so stupid to not realise it until i board the bus home. All i could do was pray that it would still be there when i go look for it the next day. After a while, i screamed out, "wat if it fucking rains??" Actually it's not the pouch that matters to me, it's the monkey i had on it. Oh well, thank god i found it the next day. The next moment i know, i lost my contact lens casing! How unlucky can i get lar. RARH!

Anyways, i'm like having some going-to-die cough. I cough every 10 secs or so and i could feel the pain in my throat like almost every sec. I run abit, cough abit. Feel so breathless the whole time. Actually i can't even run lar. I tried chasing someone just now and i always collapse i think. Hope it's just some persistant cough and not some shit virus or wat. And my flu ain't helping at all. Like some free flow drink once it starts flowing. shall stop describing all the gross stuff. In short, I'm seriously sick. =(

WOW! I'm amazed at how long this post is. Guessed today is blogging day! alright then. perhaps i should just stop here, go take my medicine and sleep already. OH i haven open my angbaos!! okie dokes. CYA then!

I need some self assurance.

I need some motivation.

I need to start doing my tutorials.

I need to stay awake in lessons.

I need to get my As.

I need...