I went for the project superstar finals! it was a hell fun over there man.. Can't believe i was there watching the whole live process.. I was suppose to sit like all the way back in some corner where i can't even get a good view of the stage de, but somehow, god blessed me and me and my friends get to shift down all the way to the front due to some error in seatings.. I was so damn happy can.. I almost scream when i saw kelly.. lols.. realise i was like some desperate kiddo idolising her like that.. but well, it's not always u get to go to such occasions and see ur idol within 10m. haha. My friend and i really went crazy lar.. cameras were clicking away like no one's business.. The whole show really took the hell lot of energy of us.. Constantly hopping from one spot to another to snap photos.. THen have to persuade the back stage crew to help us get her autograph.. damn happy lar.. words can't describe the joy i had that time.. ANd she waved to me.. or maybe to a whole group. But well, i was there and she waved.. to me!!! haha.. But sad to say, she lost the finals.. Call it sympathy or what but well, at least she got the "better" contract. And that night xin huey was really captivating, sexy, marvelous, beautiful, heavenly, watever u can use to describe how angellic she was.. lols. The duet with jun yang was awesome.. My knees almost gave way when i saw her on tv just now.. haha. SHe sure knows how to "seduce". Lols. Sigh.. BUt too bad lar.. Well, kelly still my idol! haha.

Was out of house for 3 consecutive days and i almost die of fatigue and hunger.. It was really tiring lar.. NEver felt this tired before. Dun even feel like walking just now lor.. ANd the first night i didn't even sleep a single minute.. haha. WAs playing X-box the whole night. DAMn fun.. I really had fun with my friends. It's just something i dun usually felt during my normal school days with the people around me. sigh.. all good things always come to an end de.. ANd my weekend finally ended on a high note.

But something happen during this period of time, something big which i dun really wanna talk about. It just hurt me so much that this "trust" that we had, was actually like that to you.. Call it a misunderstanding or whatsoever, it never actually crossed my mind that you would do such things to me, to us. Do you really think we can't freaking think for our own sake? we can't differentiate what's right and wrong? this is so not going to work out until the day when u convinced me that i actually destroy this trust and relationship that we had just by this single action which i unknowingly commited without thinking much. Dun wanna talk anymore. period. DUn ask me why, dun even try, you wouldn't get a single detail out from me.

SOrry for being so violent. Well, i'm starting to get worried for my final years.. sigh.. It is like 4 weeks away and i'm still slacking. especially when i have a subject that has a score of 51? sianz.. i dunno what to do with that lar.. chances are i will fail it leh.. haiz.. this is bad.. I shall put in an extra effort to do well, to pass, this subject at the end of year.. :)

And yes, looking forward to the supposedly gathering that we gonna have. So well , gtg then. bye peeps.. sigh.. sometimes i just lost my direction and motivation of life..